I’ve been praying to God since I can remember. I’ve always known that God listens, and answers prayers. As I got older I learned that God anwswers us, but not always the way we want. In my brain I uderstand all of that.
I have a very close friend who had a still born baby in April 2009. She was told it was a cord accident and that she should not have problems in the future. She got pregnant again and we prayed. We prayed and prayed and prayed. Our MOPS leadership team came together and prayed as a group. We prayed for a healthy baby. In March of 2010 her baby boy died 6 weeks before he was due and she had another still born baby.
I understand that God does not cause these things to happen, but He allows them to happen. But, ever since this has happened I’ve really struggled with prayer. We prayed so hard for that baby. Every time I start praying I always end with “what’s the point”? I don’t really want adivce on dealing with loss. I need help repairing my prayer life.
I feel like I’ve done a lot “soul searching” lately and have over come being angry at God. I still am struggling with praying to HIM.
This is my faith hurdle. −Jackie
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