I’m going through a lot spiritually right now. Like a transformation. But I don’t feel like I have good community within circles that identify themselves as “Christian” (whatever that even means anymore!). When I go to church, I feel like the music is a lot of emotional hype, and we listen to the pastor (who is awesome, by the way), but then no discussion happens. My church has small groups during the week, but they are impractical for me because of driving distance and having a baby whose bedtime clashes with any of those type of events. I love my church, but I feel like I don’t identify with American Christian culture anymore at all. It’s about as inspiring to me as reading trolls on YouTube.
I want to find an Aslan-following community of believers who will let me exercise my spiritual gifts as a woman and who sees the difference between Christian culture and Jesus following. How does one go about finding a house church or organic community that isn’t inbred and cult-like. And if I do, what is my current obligation to my box church, where I’m a full-fledged member?
This is my faith hurdle. –Savannah